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  “A minute ago you wanted to be kissed softly,” he chided lightly, and leaned over her. His nostrils were dilating, and there was a gleam of urgency in his eyes.

  Laura’s breath came heavy now; her eyelids felt thick and her temples throbbed. “That was a minute ago. A woman can always change her mind.”

  He let his large hands wander over her roughly and took her mouth hungrily, as if his very existence depended upon his ability to envelop her mouth and reach into her with his tongue.

  She could feel her lips being crushed under his teeth, and it was good.

  It hurt like hell, but it was good.

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  Chapter 3

  Laura awoke in the morning to a bright sun in a smog-free day.

  As she threw back the covers, she was startled to feel her arm and leg muscles aching uncomfortably. Then last night returned to her quickly, and she smiled slowly to herself. “Little Miss Passion Flower,” she said aloud.

  She showered quickly, her mind working on what she would have to do today: finish up that article about Ron Ramsey and his horse. And, oh God, I have to stop over at Saundra’s and pick up the glossies I left with her—she wondered briefly if Ginny would be there too—and I’ll probably have to grin politely again, and that’ll be a bore. . . .

  I need to fall in love again; that’s what I need.

  No. No point in falling in love, she decided. Only means I neglect my work, and I never pick out a man who’s really marriage material. It’s too much of a risk, and I can’t afford to lose again.

  What I really need is a few friends so I won’t be so dependent upon Walter.

  Better find a new man to date, she advised herself again. But she knew it was more trouble than it was worth—the countless dates to weed out one or two men who didn’t really bore her. No. She was just as well off with Walter— it was safer. And friends—a couple of 20

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  old maids like herself were the obvious solution. Maybe she could begin getting together with Helen, Walter’s secretary, after office hours . . . but she decided against it. Office friendships sometimes proved very awkward or unbearably tiresome.

  Her makeup completed, she gulped down a hasty cup of coffee and called the office to let Helen know she would be a little late because she had to stop off at Saundra’s.

  The huge Bel Air house was awesomely majestic even in the harsh daytime glare. She rang the bell impatiently. As she waited, the morning atmosphere reminded her of days when she was a little girl, especially those last few weeks of school before summer vacation. There was that moist, clean smell and the light breeze just barely touching her hair. She remembered the hush of the class-room while everyone studied and only the old wall clock broke the silence with its tired tick-tock. Somewhere in the room someone would shift his position, with the sound of feet shuffling on the worn wooden floor, and invariably someone would sneeze, warning them all of summer colds.

  Laura sighed in wistful reminiscence and turned her mind back to the present. She hoped today wouldn’t get too much warmer.

  She wished now she hadn’t brought her jacket.

  As if of its own accord—no one was in sight—the front door opened slowly. Then she recognized Ginny, half hidden behind the door, dressed in blue jeans and a bright green cashmere sweater.

  “Hello, Ginny,” Laura said warmly. “Is Saundra home?” She took a step forward.

  The girl stood back and opened the door wider to let Laura pass.

  “No. But she left a package for you and said that the pictures she wanted are marked on the back.” Ginny walked ahead of Laura into the cool living room. “She also asked if you could possibly wait for her. . . . She should be home any minute.”

  There was an odd, cloying deference about the way Ginny asked her to stay. It was almost the you-great-big-wonderful-you type of phrasing so popular in Cinemaville. Laura didn’t like it . . . not at all. It smacked of that obsequiousness she had observed in so many shallow Hollywood hopefuls.

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  was becoming a cynic and a self-righteous prude. What if Ginny was an opportunist . . . so what? Wasn’t everyone—in one way or another?

  Laura watched her leafing through the secretary desk, and the incongruity of Ginny in Saundra’s home still troubled her. Yet, the way she had said that Saundra would “be home” instead of “be back” had a note of authority—even possession—about it.

  “Here it is,” Ginny exclaimed finally, with a nervous laugh. She pushed her thick red hair back from her face. There was something in her manner that gave Laura the impression of flight, almost fear of being “caught.” At what? Laura was puzzled and watched the girl move a few objects on the desk as if she didn’t know what to do with herself or her hands. Suddenly, Ginny asked, “Can you wait for Saundra? Can I get you a cup of coffee?”

  Laura couldn’t imagine what Saundra wanted her to hang around for, and she really had no time. But Ginny’s hospitality was a trifle too anxious for comfort, and she couldn’t flatly refuse without sounding rude . . . and Walter would not like it if she didn’t go out of her way to please Saundra.

  “Well.” Laura hesitated, looking at her watch, then laughed with practiced good nature. “I’m expected at the office, but they know where I am if they need me. I’ll take you up on that coffee invitation.”

  “Fine! I’m sure Saundra will be glad, and she really shouldn’t be too long.” Ginny smiled brilliantly at Laura, then left the room, almost running.

  Laura was grateful for a few moments to shift into gear for this change in plans. She disliked finding herself in uncertain situations like this—this one didn’t feel like an adventure. More like a trap.

  Her original, dubious reaction to Ginny suddenly swept through her. She wasn’t too sure she liked Ginny—but she had to admit she was fascinated by her, by the odd mixture of shyness and opportunism.

  Once again she looked around the big living room with its ro-coco furniture and ornately framed Flemish paintings. Laura decided that the room looked like a movie set: artificial. The only time it had life was when Ginny was in it.

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  Saundra? And what the hell is taking her so long for a cup of coffee?

  Curious, Laura walked out into the hallway and followed the faint aroma of fresh coffee.

  In the kitchen, at a table, Ginny stood pouring the coffee. Her back was to the door.

  “Hi,” Laura said as casually as she could. “Need any help?”

  Ginny turned slightly. “Oh, hi.” She smiled and held up the pot.

  “Just coming in. Sorry to be so long.”

  Laura smiled and sat down at the table.

  “Long as we’re here, we may as well stay. Or do you like all those fifteenth-century ghouls peering down at you?”

  Ginny laughed and sat down lithely.

  The kitchen was almost as sterile in its perfection as the rest of the house—the smell of coffee saved it.

  There was a short silence, and Laura felt that if she didn’t break it now, this brief moment of friendly casualness would be lost. She asked Ginny several questions about her career and her friendship with Saundra. Ginny was thoughtful, courteous, and artfully noncommittal, her answers both too pat and too evasive.

  Conversation lingered uncertainly and then came to an abrupt halt as they heard the front door slam and Saundra’s unmistakable voice call, “Hello there? Anyone home? Ginny?”

  Then Saundra pushed open the kitchen door exuberantly.

  “Well!” she said, glancing sharply at Ginny, then at Laura. “Here we are. Enjoying yourself?”

  Saundra threw her few parcels on the drainboard and sat down with swooping grace. “And how are you, Laura? So glad you waited for me.”

  “I’m . . .” L
aura began.

  “Well, Ginny? Don’t I get any coffee?” Saundra smiled, but the coolness in her tone was unmistakable.

  “Oh, sure. I’ll get you a cup.”

  “We don’t say, ‘Oh, sure’; we say, ‘Surely.’” It was a cruelly deliberate burlesque of the old “impatient but amused mother” routine.

  “It’s a foregone conclusion that if you agree to serve me coffee, it will be in a cup.”

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  Ginny said nothing, but it didn’t take much to know she was ex-erting self-control. She rose and brought back Saundra’s coffee.

  Laura couldn’t help wondering if Saundra often treated Ginny this way, or if it was a performance strictly for her benefit.

  “How’s the shooting going on the new picture, Saundra?” Laura asked, deftly shifting the dangerous mood of the moment. “Wilson sober long enough to finish his scenes?”

  Saundra laughed sarcastically. “I wouldn’t know, since I’ve never seen him sober. But his agent will give you a better story for the public. After all”—Saundra smiled knowingly at Ginny—“a few sordid tales could be spread about me, too.”

  “Or any of us, for that matter,” Laura offered. It seemed a benign comment to make in view of Saundra’s notorious reputation.

  “I like you, Laura.” Saundra said it as if the walls should crumble and the waves should part at this earth-shattering pronouncement.

  “Thank you. . . .”

  “As a matter of fact”—the older woman reached over and patted Ginny’s hand affectionately—“I was planning on taking Ginny to Tijuana for her first bullfight a week from Sunday. Would you like to come along? We’d love to have you as our guest.”

  Ginny slowly pulled her hand away from under Saundra’s. Her face was immobile, and she avoided Laura’s glance.

  “Wouldn’t we, Ginny?” Saundra commanded.

  Ginny looked up obediently. “Oh, yes. Of course.”

  “Silly child hardly ever listens to people. Be a dear, Ginny, and get my purse.”

  Laura watched Ginny stiffen slightly then get up to bring back Saundra’s huge straw bag. Laura wondered when Saundra was going to tell Ginny to go out and play in the yard and not bother the grown-ups.

  “Have you ever been to Tijuana, Ginny?” Laura asked as casually as she could manage.

  Saundra didn’t even bother to wait for Ginny’s reply.

  “Of course she hasn’t. I don’t know how she’s lived this long and managed to remain so ignorant.” Saundra laughed at her little joke.

  “I don’t know about that.” Laura matched Saundra’s smile. “I’ve never been to a bullfight.”

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  “Really?” Saundra asked absently, and took from her purse her famous special cigarettes that were almost twice the length of any American brand. “Do you have a light, Laura?”

  She leaned forward to accept Laura’s match, steadying Laura’s hand, which didn’t need steadying. “I seem to have lost my lighter.

  It never worked properly, anyway.”

  “The one I gave you for Christmas, Saundra?” Ginny asked.

  “Oh. So you did.” Saundra laughed gaily. “But then, it is the sentiment that counts, isn’t it?”

  Laura wanted to say something—anything—to break the tension.

  But she didn’t dare. Instead, she sat quietly in her chair, pretending an air of amiable detachment. She could just see Ginny’s hands out of the corner of her eye and noticed that they were nervously clench-ing and releasing her coffee cup. Somebody say something, Laura thought as she felt the silence grow.

  Finally, Saundra’s well-controlled laugh shook the air like a vol-ley of pebbles against plate glass. “You two may sit here and meditate if you wish,” she said gaily, “but I have more important things to do.”

  She rose busily from her chair, gathering her purse and cigarettes from the table. “We’ll call you a few days before the bullfight and remind you, Laura.”

  Laura looked up at the actress’s smiling face and was torn between a feeling of sudden hatred for Saundra and overwhelming pity for Ginny. Before she could realize what she was saying—much less why—Laura nodded. “Fine. Do we wear anything special?”

  “No. Just be comfortable. Slacks or something.” Saundra gazed musingly at Ginny’s bent head for a moment. Then turning her head toward Laura, she looked at her long and steadily. “Ginny’s a sweet child,” she remarked as though the girl weren’t even in the room. “Don’t keep her too long,” she added tensely. “We’ve lots to do this afternoon.”

  Laura laughed. “I wouldn’t have kept her at all, except that I thought you wanted to talk to me about something.”

  Ginny’s head came up abruptly, and Laura thought she caught an expression of defiance in her large gray-green eyes. “You did say you wanted to talk to Laura . . .”

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  “Don’t be ridiculous, Virginia. I would have called Laura at the office if there had been anything to discuss. I certainly wouldn’t waste her time by asking her to wait for me. I thought she’d stayed on to talk to you.”

  Saundra smiled sweetly at Laura and left the room like a vindicated politician.

  Laura watched Ginny’s rigid position at the table for a few seconds and finally said, “Don’t worry, Ginny. She doubtlessly just forgot about it. Anyway,” she said more lightly, “it gave me a chance to get to know you better.”

  “She really did tell me to ask you to wait . . . really.”

  Laura stared into Ginny’s eyes. Her first reaction was that Ginny was lying, but she shoved it aside quickly.

  “I never doubted you.”

  “Thanks.” Ginny smiled a little uncertainly. Then she stood up and took the cups to the sink. There was a sort of resignation in her walk.

  Laura had to get out of here. It was uncomfortable. She patted Ginny’s arm gently and walked out into the warm sunshine.

  Exhaling a deep sigh of relief, she got into her car. She sat there for a moment, resting her head against the seat. What a morning! Well, at least it wasn’t boring.

  But as she drove to work she couldn’t throw off a feeling of anxiousness about her Sunday date with them. And the more she tried to understand why she was anxious, the more confused she became.

  “Oh, the hell with it,” she said aloud.

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  Chapter 4

  Thursday and Friday passed for Laura with the usual routine and nonroutine events. But she was aware that something had changed inside her. Only, she couldn’t figure out what it was. In one way, she seemed to be unusually lighthearted, filled with a vague but pleasant sense of anticipation. On the other hand, she was strangely irascible—more quick-tempered about the daily annoyances.

  “Schizoid,” she told herself. “The split in my personality is definitely showing.” But her mocking self-abuse didn’t alter the situation. Even with this awareness of her contrary emotions, she continued to seesaw from one extreme to another.

  Returning to the office late Friday afternoon in her new mood, the old Spanish-style office building took on a fresh appearance for her, with its black wrought-iron gates and patio in the center of the squared structure. It didn’t seem quite so much in need of paint, nor did it any longer look like a rather poor imitation of the colo-nial California days. As a matter of fact, Laura decided as she reached the top of the stairs, it was really rather quaint and charming.

  “Hi, Laura. Coffee’s on.” Helen, Walter’s secretary, poured another cup from the battered coffeemaker.

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  Laura accepted it gratefully and sat down at her desk, feeling companionable.

  “What’s the matter, Helen? Bad day?” Laura asked with friendly concern as she opened her purse and took out her cigarettes and reading glasses.

  “No. Nothing that simple,” Helen laughed bitter
ly. “Just one of those old-maid blue days.”

  “We all get them, so don’t feel alone.” It occurred to Laura that she was an old maid, too. Last week she had felt just as miserable and numb. Last week, hell! Two days ago.

  Her thoughts were broken as Helen tilted her head toward Walter’s office, whispering, “He’s in a work-work-work mood today. Otherwise, the place has been pretty quiet, considering it’s press time.”

  Laura watched her as she neatly arrayed her day’s work. She admired Helen’s quiet efficiency. But she also knew that Helen was unable to think for herself and took as little responsibility as possible. That had often annoyed Laura.

  “Any calls while I was out, Helen?”

  “Nothing in particular. Fishburn called about the copy on Mario.

  And Excelsior called to find out when the Dalton Scott story will hit the stands. Oh, and a Ginny Adams called. Said it wasn’t urgent and she would call back.”

  Laura tried to control her swift reaction. She was almost shocked that Ginny had called. Even perhaps guilty, as if Ginny shouldn’t have called at the office—strangely illicit. She considered quickly why Ginny might have called—perhaps for Saundra, or perhaps they were not going to Tijuana after all.

  Then, seeing Helen’s questioning gaze, she covered up by asking for more coffee.

  Afterward, Laura busily leafed through papers on her desk and read the afternoon mail. Just like Ensignia Studios to veto the press release on their lawsuit against their top box-office star! Neurotic Hollywood characters, Laura thought.

  Saundra Simons is a good example, she told herself. What the hell is she trying to do to Ginny? Wonder what Ginny wants . . .

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  The door opened behind them loudly as Walter called out, “Laura.

  Can you come into my office a minute?”

  Laura gulped down the rest of her coffee. “Sure, Walter.” She rose and walked into his large office, sank onto the overstuffed leather chair in front of his desk.